Can’t sleep

I woke up about 5 am unable to sleep. Restless and anxious, funny how life creeps up on you in a sound sleep and screams “WAKE UP!” Dh was kind enough to switch sides of the bed with me so I could use the laptop. It’s going on 7 am and I am dying for a cup of coffee but out of respect for dh I won’t get up to make it. In the house you do what you can to keep the rugrats asleep.

I rejoined WW’s yesterday, against my dh’s feelings. Its my money…I will throw it away if I wanna! Later at the grocery store he didn’t say a word as I shopped for the old WW staples. Just a few to get me through the week until payday again. I need to run to the library and print off my temp card and hit my first meeting at noon. I am taking this one day at a time…baby steps…its all I can muster.

Yesterday went okay, except I was under my points by 8.5.

**Note to self: EAT BREAKFAST BEFORE ITS TOO LATE!**

So, what am I anxious about?

School, work, kids, dh leaving for Nebraska in a week and we are a month behind on the mortgage etc and wondering how I will manage until he gets back? His response: Everything will be fine! He has no idea how this weighs on me emotionally and how it plays a part on me physically. I just want to smack him sometimes.

Giving in…I have to get MY COFFEE!