A girl can change her mind.

I don’t know if I can call yesterday a successful day or not. I began it well by having breakfast before we left to go into town. Dh and I were going to go to work to check on things and then play on the beach since our work is set up on the cliffs of Lake Michigan. It was a beautiful day! We got there and found out there was open swim so we felt guilty, we went home to get whatever munchkins wanted to go. Before we went home we had lunch buffet at our favorite Chinese place called Wok In-Wok Out. They saved me…they didn’t have the stuffed mushrooms I so dearly devour mindlessly. Instead I had fresh salmon with my salad and a small sampling of fried rice, 2 small ragoons, fresh strawberries and a pot sticker. I didn’t go up for 2nds…I was sooo good!

Ron walking the lazy river, hauling Emma

I got lots of sun and some exercise, but I think Ron got more. He not only carries his weight but he usually has 59 lbs of Emma and sometimes double if Gabe wants to hang on him too. Gabe made a friend and was off jumping into the deep end. His accomplishment: Touching Bottom! Emma worked on swimming in the deep too. I love where we work! Next weekend, we have invited my family up to spend the day and then we are going to picnic below on Lake Michigan. My stepbrother and his family will be here from Texas.

We left Geneva about 4 pm and went to the grocery store to get  some produce. We made the kids corn dogs for dinner and Ron grilled a Turkey tenderloin for us with fresh asparagus. I made a grape tomato and avocado salad using Olive oil drizzle and lime juice. It was delicious paired with the tenderloin.

About an hour or two after dinner I had a sugar craving. This is the most dangerous time because 9 times out of 10 my husband won’t stop me. lol We drove into the local grocery and headed where else? The Icecream aisle! I looked everything over including the 100 calories ice cream treats..the whole time thinking they aren’t big enough to satisfy me and I would want another or my 14 yr old would eat them up by Monday. I didn’t want to waste my money. Ron picked out the popcycles for the kids and I was going to get my fave Ben n Jerry Cookies n Mint but I no sooner had it in my hot little hands when I found myself not wanting it anymore. WHO IS THIS WOMAN? My husband asked me what was wrong and I just looked at him and said “Nothing…I just realized that it isn’t what I really wanted!” He reached in for his Dove ice cream and I had walked down away from the temptation and he asked ” You don’t want anything?” I told him again, that I really didn’t. I thought its what I needed and wanted but for once I realized I don’t. I then kind of reminded him of the amount of calories he was about to consume and he too wants to get his body in better shape and lose his buddah belly. lol A gal walking past me kind of chuckled and Ron thought about it a few minutes. Like a little boy his shoulders dropped and walked back to the freezer and put his Ice cream back. I know he was disapointed and I told him that it had to be his decision. He said he knew I was right it was just hard. We came home and the kids asked where our treat was because usually we have something for just US. I didn’t feel deprived…I did have a FF Pudding cup though. lol

This morning the scale went down a little bit more…I  know we made the right decision!

Its kind of nice to be a girl who can change her mind!

Can’t sleep

I woke up about 5 am unable to sleep. Restless and anxious, funny how life creeps up on you in a sound sleep and screams “WAKE UP!” Dh was kind enough to switch sides of the bed with me so I could use the laptop. It’s going on 7 am and I am dying for a cup of coffee but out of respect for dh I won’t get up to make it. In the house you do what you can to keep the rugrats asleep.

I rejoined WW’s yesterday, against my dh’s feelings. Its my money…I will throw it away if I wanna! Later at the grocery store he didn’t say a word as I shopped for the old WW staples. Just a few to get me through the week until payday again. I need to run to the library and print off my temp card and hit my first meeting at noon. I am taking this one day at a time…baby steps…its all I can muster.

Yesterday went okay, except I was under my points by 8.5.

**Note to self: EAT BREAKFAST BEFORE ITS TOO LATE!**

So, what am I anxious about?

School, work, kids, dh leaving for Nebraska in a week and we are a month behind on the mortgage etc and wondering how I will manage until he gets back? His response: Everything will be fine! He has no idea how this weighs on me emotionally and how it plays a part on me physically. I just want to smack him sometimes.

Giving in…I have to get MY COFFEE!